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Lol, sorry for the title pun. I've been playing Ace Attourney on my DS too much lately... Things just seem to be doing a major rollercoaster ride right now...
First was Animania in Cary, NC where I met with old friends and made new ones. I even confronted the ones who didn't take too kindly to me being a "motherly" figure to everyone else in the group (needless to say I told them to FUCK OFF)
Things started looking up for the next month. I began talking to more people and even finding a certain someone (<3) Everything seemed to be going smoothly... until family trouble started.... and the rollercoaster starts it downward decent...
My family and friends came down for a party a week ago. I didn't go into work b/c of it. Which got me fired. No big deal, they were taking serious advantage of my anyhow. SCREW THEM!
Everything was going swell, even though some people showed up late. Then you add alcohol to the equation along with adults that drink HEAVILY and getting totally toasted. Needless to say I ended up in tears by late night. I tried to bring my guests to the others but none of them wanted to hang out with kids that LOVED showing their asses. Nor around people who are getting stupidly drunk... Now I'm normally a great person but still.... things that were promised SHOULD HAVE BEEN KEPT. But I guess I don't really matter much to anyone anymore.
Now I find any reason to get out of the house and do things on my own. I barely hear from anyone any more and always feel like i've done something wrong some how. I've also seen the true dissapointment of trusting someone only to find out they're the "fair weather" type. Meaning one minuted they're with you, and the next they want to crush the life out of you. WTH man?? And not to mention bashing your friends who are more like your family than the real thing.
I felt like everything I've done is thrown to the wind and the things that I don't do or that I mess up on is what everyone looks at.
I've seen people get away with things that are akin to freaking MURDER compaired to what I do. I so much as even THINK about doing something like that and I get the "HOMFGIKEELJOO!!!" I mean I base my life on my morals, values and keep my standerds high for myself and others. Not to mention I pride myself in what I do. I've been working my ass off so that I can afford a few measily classes in college...
So yea.. I look to move somewhere a bit north and go to a tech college...
The only thing I have to look forward to is my trip with the girls on the 6th, spending time with my boyfriend and trying my damnedst to keep my sanity...
Oh damn, here comes another stress headache >.<
Chao (notice if you add an "s" onto it, the word is CHAOS)
Sakura
First was Animania in Cary, NC where I met with old friends and made new ones. I even confronted the ones who didn't take too kindly to me being a "motherly" figure to everyone else in the group (needless to say I told them to FUCK OFF)
Things started looking up for the next month. I began talking to more people and even finding a certain someone (<3) Everything seemed to be going smoothly... until family trouble started.... and the rollercoaster starts it downward decent...
My family and friends came down for a party a week ago. I didn't go into work b/c of it. Which got me fired. No big deal, they were taking serious advantage of my anyhow. SCREW THEM!
Everything was going swell, even though some people showed up late. Then you add alcohol to the equation along with adults that drink HEAVILY and getting totally toasted. Needless to say I ended up in tears by late night. I tried to bring my guests to the others but none of them wanted to hang out with kids that LOVED showing their asses. Nor around people who are getting stupidly drunk... Now I'm normally a great person but still.... things that were promised SHOULD HAVE BEEN KEPT. But I guess I don't really matter much to anyone anymore.
Now I find any reason to get out of the house and do things on my own. I barely hear from anyone any more and always feel like i've done something wrong some how. I've also seen the true dissapointment of trusting someone only to find out they're the "fair weather" type. Meaning one minuted they're with you, and the next they want to crush the life out of you. WTH man?? And not to mention bashing your friends who are more like your family than the real thing.
I felt like everything I've done is thrown to the wind and the things that I don't do or that I mess up on is what everyone looks at.
I've seen people get away with things that are akin to freaking MURDER compaired to what I do. I so much as even THINK about doing something like that and I get the "HOMFGIKEELJOO!!!" I mean I base my life on my morals, values and keep my standerds high for myself and others. Not to mention I pride myself in what I do. I've been working my ass off so that I can afford a few measily classes in college...
So yea.. I look to move somewhere a bit north and go to a tech college...
The only thing I have to look forward to is my trip with the girls on the 6th, spending time with my boyfriend and trying my damnedst to keep my sanity...
Oh damn, here comes another stress headache >.<
Chao (notice if you add an "s" onto it, the word is CHAOS)
Sakura
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